Refining

It was three years ago from this week
that I remember hearing the voice of God for the first time. I never knew what
it sounded like before but when it happened I knew with everything in me it was
God. The words He spoke will never leave me. He said, “Jessie, you were
created for so much more than this”.  That was the truth. I loved God
but I wasn’t really living. So I stepped out and said yes. Where ever
he took me and whatever he wanted to do in me I was going to follow Him.

So I went on a journey with God. I did the World Race
(www.theworldrace.org) and my life changed. I believed in who God created me to
be and I was empowered to go into the ends of the earth for Him. It was a hard
process though. I had to go through a lot of healing and hard times. My junk
was out for everyone to see. But I had nothing to hide behind. God transformed
me.

Now
I have been home from the World Race for over a year and a half. And somewhere
along the line I had forgotten all that God did in me. I got comfortable once
again. And I was just going through the motions. Nothing in my life made sense
anymore and I was fighting to just keep my head above water. I knew something
had to change…..it was ME!

Yesterday I
had an amazing day of freedom and healing. I was able to lay things at the foot
of his cross. I was able to finally surrender again. And today I feel like a
new creation. I feel like he is refining me and even though it hurts I am
becoming more like him.

I am ready to dream those big dreams once more and say yes to
whatever he has in store for me.